Eating.......not enough time to spend..

Lets see....

what have i eaten so far...

had duck frm somewhere near PJ....restaurant called Golden Sun....

had bbq with family and cousin's family....

had bacon and eggs for breakfast....

not having lunch...

still full from breakfast...

well....

wish i had more time for this visit though...

not for eating lar...

time to spend with my heng dai's....

managed to spend an hour ++ with 2nd bro(+ ah sou) and 4th bro....

met at midvalley by coincidence....

had a drink with them...

4th bro is working at the feng shui shop there...

2nd bro just out for a walk~~~

he's re-entering uni for his diploma this MAY....

wish him all the best..

well...

i had to go back early...

mum gave me max of an hour....

wants to go to the puchong house...

bbq there lor...

have to go earlier start fire and stuff...

dad was irratable...

complain abt this....

complain abt that...

no mood b in his presence...

as if that wasnt bad enough....

his sister also was back for the long weekend...

******* *****

the pair of them around...

had to extra strain for patience...

tiring me out so damn much...

as if i dont have enough things to think abt...

very streesfull "time for relaxation"....

come home to relax and have nice food...

watch the tv a bit...

kena tembak by her adi...

i dislike being around her lar..

sure...

she's rich...

mahal food too...

but sometimes...

she's a pain in the neck...

same personality as my dad if not worse....

pengsan lar...

wanna die...

wish there were more time to be with my heng dai's....

miss the good old days...

(makes me sound so old....)

but really...

i miss being with all of them...

always something lacking in my life at kampar...

the insecureness...

loneliness...

but ...

looking like i'm happy...

in reality...

i don't feel happy...

always blue and down...

to little happy memories to maintain happiness....

hope to find peace soon...

real peace...

not just the word...

but the real feeling of it...










this post was supposed to be written last night...but no mood to write....later might have one abt my day(today).....see how things go.... thats all for now.... HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE