Sunday, March 29, 2009

Manga Review

Its been awhile since i last added anything on...

been rather busy..

with assignments...

and other things...

well for today...

it'll b short..

just a manga review~~

though i havent finish reading it myself...

more like promoting it~~

Title : Marugoto Anjyu Gakuen

Genre : action, comedy, ecchi, gender bender, mature, romance, school life, shounen, supernatural.

Artist/Author : Amatsu Sae

Chapters: 20 - completed

Summary

Kaguya is a boy in an all-girl's school for demons [fox spirit, succubus, werewolf, etc]. Being the only human was bad enough, but the added risk of his manhood being discovered makes for silly and unbelievable (yet deliciously envious) situations.


My comments:

THIS IS 18 SX..

funny

cute

great if you have interest in lolicon/doujinshi

recommended to GUYS!!!

girls can read too...

but GUYS!

you have to read the whole thing if your a straight/normal guy!!

I prefer TAMOE and MIO...

More than NENE and SASA...

Tamoe is rather cute, short, has the characteristics i like for a gf(girls who are single do read >.< )~~

haha...joking~~

Mio is only cute after she transforms~~

like a soft toy mroe when she transforms(read to find out more)~~

Nene is way toooooooo violent, has hour glass shape body...

but to violent lar~~

Sasa's cute...

but lacking something...I'm not sure myself..

but on the whole~~~

I like Tamoe the most...

<3

Thats all for now~~

back to the comic for me~~~

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Update - 24th March 2009

Wont have much updates for the next few days...

busy time...

assignments and stuff...

who says assignments last minute cannot do??

my part of the assignment took me about an hour ++....

not that tough mar..

linguistics : my part done - left Sheena's, Dante's and Kai Fu's...(This Thursday Due)

grammar: 1/3 done...(This Friday Due)

phonology: dead....(Week 13 Due)

literature: early stages....(30th March Due)

can de lar~~~

next Monday, double debate....

next Friday either double debate or quiz...(start study edi...a bit lar..)

so that's abt it...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

People Don't Know How To Relax

Eat eat eat...

sendiri go eat...

few days adi ler...

sendiri find place sendiri go eat...

not all three meals lar....

most meals pun sendiri cari makan...

just now was thinking sendiri go out to the restaurant i went for lunch....

then sheng wang ajak me out makan with his coursemates...

which consisted of 3 girls and 2 guys...

the 2 guys damn smooth and cool leh!!!

we din chat much at first..

filling tummy more important first...

then the 1st topic we chatted about was how come many UTAR students dead boring..

don't know how to relax and enjoy...

This topic i can chat...

banyak experience..

close friend pun like this...

but i can understand geh...

they are the "hardworking-study-1st-before-anything-else" type...

I'm not cuz that type of ppl end up having depression and the such when they dun reach their targets....

My cousin is a perfect example....

the fella is the "hardworking-study-1st-before-anything-else" type.....

den when he din get the results he wanted...

he in depression...

thin like a stick..

wind blow i think he can fly adi...

some more when he get sick....

need super long time to recover...

body under stress....

how to kill virus???

they just don't want to listen...

even study also have to balance out relax time...

time to play...

cannot lar always study, assignment, study, assignment, study, assignment....

sure mati sooner or later...

then regret dun listen...

haiz...

seen so many these type of cases...

susah lar..

if classmates end up like that...

either drop course...

or...

end up need take med for depression...

what's the point study till like that???

I cant survive happily around people like this...

damn lonely...

people these days forget how to relax adi....

when tell them to loosen up and relax...

they say: "Cannot lar!! Assignment due date coming" or "Cannot lar next week exam/quiz!!!"

when body under soo much stress...

rosak lor...

machine/robot oso die lar...

but they keep denying that it will happen....

my cousin denied...

the upper-middle students of my year in high school denied this too...

in the end after results out...

most into depression...

what's the point??

seriously lar...

I cannot tahan so much stress...

i can see with my own eyes the damage of over hardworking and studying...

end up like that...

where got boss wan hire u???

always on sick leave...

hantu oso dun wan lar!!!

So lucky to have found ppl that share my point of view...

Besides that...

we chatted about...

Mat Rempit spoiling the serenity at the lake at night...

The un-secureness of Westlake, got security guard oso no use....

a bit of this and that as well...

i enjoyed that...

a nice long chat...

the shop wan close only we leave...

=P

food tastes better when u have the a good mood...

right atmosphere...

ahh.....

now back in gloomy room...

i prefer going out....

leave room more often...

go makan or jalan jalan with friends...

but sadly dun have...

if have...

wont be typing this post lar....

maybe will lar...

but later...

2moro need be guard/timekeeper(Don't know which..cannot remember) for the debate....

will be cycling...

dun wan take bus adi...

must cycle(despite injury)

oh well...

that's all for now...

hope later got ppl find me go yum cha...

if not...

then i go sleep~~~

PS:

I want buy a M1335 Edifier...

it's a speaker(2x) + woofer..for laptop...

RM 110, buy from Tesco wor...

JD said...

wait lar...

next round got time go Tesco buy...

damn nice wei!!

if turn on loud enough...

far far away oso can hear adi...

I WANT ! I WANT ! I WANT ! I WANT ! I WANT ! I WANT ! I WANT !

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE....‏‏

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2)
Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3)
Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
(4)
Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5)
Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6)
That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7)
Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' .. that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8)
Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU!

(9)
Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

To Guys,

This is to warn you about arguments you can
avoid if you remember the terminology. It's a dangerous world out there...



***** Lately I've been having a blank brain...duno wad to write...have the topic in mind...but the word/content just won't form...so bear with the copy, paste posts from emails... *****
****** This piece was taken from an e-mail sent to me from Nelson Kuah a.k.a. Bird God ******

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Excellent article on cancer. Pass it on...

Excellent article on cancer. Pass it on...

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY AND
ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE
IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .


Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins
:

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few
billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are
unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental,
food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow,
gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not
result in more tumor destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence
the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer
cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.



WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:


a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like
NutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses
but only in very sma ll amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and
substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are being starved.

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than
beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline
environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach
down to cellular levels within 15 minutes to no urish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try
and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at
temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties.
Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.


12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrified
and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of
cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the
body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the
body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger,
unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax
and enjoy life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular
level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.



(PLEASE FORWARD IT TO PEOPLE YOU CARE ABOUT)



This is an article that should be sent to anyone you consider important in your life.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Miss Foundation Days..

I severelly miss foundation days...

back then...

even though next day have exam/quiz...

people still relax and enjoy...

can go out makan lar...

can go gai gai lar...

u can hear people say: "Come, lets go midvalley" or "Hey 2nite wan go ....?"

usual replies are : "yup" or "yeah, y not"

seldom will hear : "cannot lar...2moro exam/quiz" or "assignment lar..."

damn...

should have gone out more with ex-TB2 friends...

wei yan lar....ragy lar...kai fu...or even Meng Leong and the others(non-tb2 but still great buddies)...

haiz...

2nite got many stars...

but the person who promised to see it with me one day...

i guess that person will most probably say no...

so no point asking...

but it's nice and windy tonight...

the night sky plastered with stars...

oh well...

i could always walk there myself...

not a big deal anyways...

had to spend some days in solitary meals...

not that i mind eating alone though...

dont get me wrong...

i just prefer makan with many ppl..

in other words...

i like socializing~~~

=D

well what to do...

most malaysians are trained from young to sit for exams...

malaysian's No. 1 at exams!!!

though i rather go against that statement...

find it too boring...

restricts the mind from wondering...

no wonder you dont hear of malaysians inventing new stuff or innovating stuff...

most copy paste works...

there may be some break throughs or new inventions...

but cannot compare with foreign countries like japan or USA...

cuz all only know how to take what text book or notes provide...

haiz...

exam based country...what to do...

exam results determine everything...

but at least these days the co-curriculum is taken into account...

not that bad...but still bad...

sad sad sad....

stupid education system...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Yahoo!!! My 200th post!!!

To mark the event of reaching the 200th post....

i duno wad im doing really...

but here goes...

Most favorite:

English Music Artists - Works(those I fancy)

Eminem - The real Slim Shady, Shake That, Oops!!! Slim Shady did it again

Gym Class Heroes - Cookie Jar

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

Katy Perry - Hot n' Cold

Unknown(?) - Which Backstreet Boy is Gay

Well thats about it...

there is more..

but dun feel like putting in...

But the main one I like presently is...

.....

......

.......

........

EMINEM!!!

also known as...

SLIM SHADY!!!



I chose him cuz...

his songs reflect to how i feel at present...

the cruder the better....

the vulgarities is nothing...

its the meaning in it which matters...

Eminem ROCKS!!!!




Well this concludes my 200th post...

^^

Support Eminem!!!



P.S. :




Promote Earth Day...March 28th..turn off your lights and appliences for an hour, begining at 8.30PM~~~ Nation as well as worldwide event!!!
Play a part in helping save our only home!!!
Just an hour!!!

An hour with no internet won't KILL you!!!
EARTH DAY!!!
28th March 2009
8.30PM - 9.30PM


* & ^ % $ # @ ! RaNdOmNeSs ! @ # $ % ^ & *

zzz....

these days duno y all posts in this format....

write a line...

leave a line...

sot sot dei...

>.< >(00)<

-(00)-

=(00)=

+(00)+

@(00)@

$(00)$

T(--)T ... sniff..gt flu~~

T(00)T...

('''\ ^(00)^ /''')



sot liao~~~

z(00)z

Stupid Assignments..

soo many assignments...

so little time...

hate rush work...

stupid tests...

2moro plan do assignment now nid postpone...

why...

cuz got phonetics class lor...

stupid quiz...

as well...

bored...

hate most subs..

in this sem...

i more of the writer type...

not the speaker...

or the presenter...

more towards the writer...

but sadly...

this sem no writing subs...

haiz...

wun b surprised of fail some...

all oso not my strong point...

=.="""

going slp soon...

bus at 9.05am 2moro...

nid wake by 8.30am...

Monday, March 16, 2009

Good news & Bad news

Bad news (for me)

Jie jie~~~

block me buat apa???

normal wan chat wit u cannot liao~~~





Good news

CHELSEA WON!!!

Final score was...

Chelsea 1 - 0 Man C

yesterday geh more nice...

Man Utd lost~~~(Bad for some, Good for some[me])

score was...

Man Utd 1 - 4 Liverpool...

well thats about it i guess~~

good night~~~

Sunday, March 15, 2009

妈妈学英文 my friend emailed this to me~~~

妈妈学英文 (一)

有一天,我正在看VCD,老妈棒了一本书进来。

老妈:这个 "i don't know." 是什么意思 ?
我说:我不知道.
老妈:送你去大学读了几年,你怎么什么都不知道
我说:不是 就是"我不知道"
老妈:还嘴硬
说完老妈给了我一巴掌。

妈妈学英文 (二)

老妈:那 "i know." 是什么意思你应该知道吧
我说:是 "我知道".
老妈:知道就快说.
我说:就是 "我知道".
老妈:你皮痒是不是 ?
我说:就是 "我知道"呀!
老妈:知道你还不说? 不懂不要装懂!
老妈又给了我一巴掌。

妈妈学英文 (三)

老妈:再问你最后一个,你给我翻译一下 "i know but i don't want to tell you." 是什么意思?
我说:... ... ... ... ... ...我拿起枕头往自己的头上猛K三十几下,再用那个头撞墙三十多下,再用脚踢桌角三十多下,再用双手轮流掌嘴三十多下,血肉模糊之时,我问老妈:这下你满意了吧?!

人们常说:学习是痛苦的历程。
不过我不明白,为什么受伤的总是我。
我妈学英文的热情日益高涨,因而我的苦难就日益加深。

今天,她又来问我了。

老妈:儿子啊..! "i'm very annoyance,don't trouble me."是什么意思啊?
我说:我很烦,别烦我。
老妈:欠揍!跟你妈这么说话。
于是,我又挨了一巴掌。

妈妈学英文 一续二

老妈又问:"i hear nothing,repeat"是什么意思呢?
我说:我没听清楚,再说一次。
老妈又说了一遍:i hear nothing,repeat.
我说:我没听清楚,再说一次。
我:噢~猛?

妈妈学英文 一续三

老妈再问:"what do you say?"又是什么意思?
我说:你说什么?
老妈作势要打我,【算了,问另外一句。】

老妈:look up in the dictionary.是什么意思呢?
我说:查字典
老妈:叫我查字典?那我干嘛问你?!
这次我挨了两巴掌。

妈妈学英文 一续四

老妈又问:"you had better ask somebody." 怎么翻呢?
我说:你最好问别人。
老妈:你是我的儿子,我问别人干嘛?你又在皮痒了。
我说:啊!god save me
老妈:敢耍你老妈?上帝也救不了你!
老妈又给了我一巴掌。

妈妈学英文 一续五

老妈:我再问你。"Use your head ,then think it over."又是什么意思呢?
我说:动动你的脑子,再仔细想想。
老妈:死仔,还敢耍我? 接着又要动手。
我连忙说:是世上只有妈妈好的意思
老妈:嗯,这还差不多!等下我做好吃的给你,下次再问你。

T.T

Looks like some of my high schoolmates dah forget me~~~

not on their blog list anyways...

some on msn even asked me : "You are?"...

when i said : "Hi, how are you?"...

yao mou kao cuo?

1 - 2 year no see only dah forget me...

haiz...

cant blame them geh...

i got exam dat time they holiday....

they exam that time i holiday...

they organise gathering..

i think 1 per 4 times they call me i may be free to go...

hard to get ngam ngam all holiday...

nak gathering with heng dai go beach or Genting pun susah cari masa....

sometimes this makes me regret starting uni early (as in JAN '08 Intake)...

should have followed them MAY '08 Intake...

but then again...

no use harping abt what has been done...

ARGH....

I need slp lar...

thinking too much~~~

Saturday, March 14, 2009

I think this is the first comic I'm recommending other's to read...

Tittle : Gekka no Kimi (The Moonlight Prince)

Type : drama, historical, mature, mystery, romance, shoujo.

Author/Artist : Ako Shimaki

Chapters : 29

Summary (as stated in onemanga.com) : This manga is loosely based on The Tale of Genji Monogatari. When the Emperor takes a new Empress, she is barely older than the Emperor's son Hikaru. She becomes both the one woman Hikaru loves and the one woman he can never have.
And so Hikaru's feelings roam as his body wanders from bed to bed, seeking a replacement for her. When he finds the girl he believes can take her place...he commits a terrible sin. Now, a thousand years later, Hikaru's nightmares become reality as he is punished for past deeds in a new life--the greatest playboy in all of history...shakes like a lamb when any girl touches him!

My own thoughts about this manga (I havent finish reading yet though..somewhere in chapter23) :

Very nice to read when in a good mood...
Confusing at times... lots of flashbacks...
Not recommended for those who are wondering shells like me...
But in general its nice...
Do read ^^




So Close Yet So Far

So close yet so far...

a wall seperates us...

but miles and millions block the path to your heart...

sealed behind a lock and a seal...

they key melted away...

with no key...

how can i unlock the path to your heart?

now a wall seperates us...

there you are...

right on the other end of the wall...

so close yet so far...

how i wish you were nearer...

close enough for me to hold you in my arms..

close enough for me to wisper in your ear...

close enough to feel your heart beat away..

yet your heart is hidden and kept away...

never to be mine...

loved you lots I did...

till you showed me the exit...

away from your heart...

before the question could be uttered in time to come...

you have already shown me the way out...

so close yet so far...

how saddening and depressing...

seperated physically by walls, stones, and wood....

seperated mentally by all the locks and seals...

seperated psycholigically by everything else....

so close yet so far...

Friday, March 13, 2009

Short poem - *Untitled*

I want to hold u in my arms tonight,

Yet you shun me aside.

I love you with all my heart,

Hoping one day you'll be mine.




I wrote this in Mr. Krishnan's class this morning....
No specific person in mind...
Just felt like writing it...

Thursday, March 12, 2009

A Moonlit Night

The thunderstorm in the afternoon...

brought fourth a slight drizzle in the evening...

rain drops glistening on the leaves and cars...

a smaller drizzle...

the clouds parted...

giving way to the full moon...

round and yellow...

so huge and awesome...

what a wonderful night this may be...

a stroll down the lane...

umbrella in one hand...

the other in the hand of a lover...

walking slowly beneath the umbrella...

enjoying the wind and the slight drizzle...

how romantic!!!

moving into the night...

the sky lit up by the full moon...

couples by the lake...

enjoying the wind and the moon...

either talking animately with each other...

or maybe...

just hugging each other in silence...

no words to descibe how they feel...

on such a wonderfull night...

feeling the peacefull winds from the hills....

which cools as it glides across the lake...

to those who stand by the lake...

sharing warmth...

without the feeling of being cold...

ahh...

how I wish I were one of those by the lake on this wonderfull night...

holding the girl that I love...

gently wispering to her...

or just...

sharing this great moment together...

sealing the night with a kiss...

the experience forever sealed in memory...

ah..

such a wonderful hope~~

maybe one day...

my wish will be granted...

haha....

am starting to feel tired now...

the moonlit night...

such a romantic and peaceful night...

I wish it to never end...

To everyone...

Good night and have a great time....

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

The colour of the heart

The colour of my heart is the colour of yours...

soul mates are meant to be together...

those who share the same colour of the heart...

they are those who are meant for each other...

each and everyone of us have a unique colour to our hearts...

with one or two other individuals who may share the same colour...

or slightly the same colour...

those who are together for years on end...

those married for decades...

those people found their opposites with the same colour of the heart...

some times...

same colours don't mix right...

some times...

different colours mix better...

these are different cases..

but to find someone else with the same colour of the heart as oneself...

that is truly hard to find...

one cannot claim that he or she shares the same colour with their lovers...

till the day that they die...

for some...

married for decades does not mean happiness in the past decades...

the colour of the heart...

no one knows for sure the colour of their hearts...

even i cant tell the true colour of my heart....

in reality...

scientists...

doctors...

medical personnel's..

they will say that the colour of the heart is reddish or something similar to that colour...

but the colour of which i speak of....

cannot be seen by the normal eyes of a person...

its more of a feeling than really seeing the colour...

sometimes...

when you feel that your made for that person...

look deeply into yourself...

before...

you look closely with your heart...

things may not always remain the same...

colour fade off photos with time....

papers change colour with time...

the heart's colour may change at anytime...

watch the colours....

if it was meant to be...

the lucky you...

if not....

well...

there's always next time...

the colour of my heart...

in the past...

i never saw clearly...

i made my moves to soon...

some i made the right choice...

while on other times...

the outcome was bad...

always read and see properly...

before any decisions made...

think straight...

look deeply into your heart..

let the heart tell you what it sees...

let it tell you what it feels..

the heart never lies...

one cannot control how the heart thinks or reacts...

though none of what i said can be proven by science...

its all down to faith and whether or not one chooses to believe....

the colour of the heart...

what's mine....

what's yours...

only before our deaths can we truly and really tell the colours of our hearts...

Monday, March 9, 2009

Eating.......not enough time to spend..

Lets see....

what have i eaten so far...

had duck frm somewhere near PJ....restaurant called Golden Sun....

had bbq with family and cousin's family....

had bacon and eggs for breakfast....

not having lunch...

still full from breakfast...

well....

wish i had more time for this visit though...

not for eating lar...

time to spend with my heng dai's....

managed to spend an hour ++ with 2nd bro(+ ah sou) and 4th bro....

met at midvalley by coincidence....

had a drink with them...

4th bro is working at the feng shui shop there...

2nd bro just out for a walk~~~

he's re-entering uni for his diploma this MAY....

wish him all the best..

well...

i had to go back early...

mum gave me max of an hour....

wants to go to the puchong house...

bbq there lor...

have to go earlier start fire and stuff...

dad was irratable...

complain abt this....

complain abt that...

no mood b in his presence...

as if that wasnt bad enough....

his sister also was back for the long weekend...

******* *****

the pair of them around...

had to extra strain for patience...

tiring me out so damn much...

as if i dont have enough things to think abt...

very streesfull "time for relaxation"....

come home to relax and have nice food...

watch the tv a bit...

kena tembak by her adi...

i dislike being around her lar..

sure...

she's rich...

mahal food too...

but sometimes...

she's a pain in the neck...

same personality as my dad if not worse....

pengsan lar...

wanna die...

wish there were more time to be with my heng dai's....

miss the good old days...

(makes me sound so old....)

but really...

i miss being with all of them...

always something lacking in my life at kampar...

the insecureness...

loneliness...

but ...

looking like i'm happy...

in reality...

i don't feel happy...

always blue and down...

to little happy memories to maintain happiness....

hope to find peace soon...

real peace...

not just the word...

but the real feeling of it...










this post was supposed to be written last night...but no mood to write....later might have one abt my day(today).....see how things go.... thats all for now.... HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Home at last...

Home at last...

one which i didnt really feel like coming home to...

but...

all is well...

came back to KL by train...

took a deep breath the moment i stepped out of the station...

coughed and sneezed a bit...

the kampar air is better...

fresher and less polluted...

kampar is more quite compared to kl...

took a cab home...

felt weird when entering my home...

it seemed huger than i remembered...

1st thing i did...

was to get some food...

grandma heated up some soup for me...

ahh...

home cooked food..

something i missed a lot...

especially my grandma's cooking...

well nt to say there werent any greeting party...

got 7 mosquito bites(up till now)...

then i turned on the tv...

been awhile since i watched some tv...

then the least favorite person came home...

greeted him in the usual manner...

tried to converse with him...

told him of the tales of my life so far in kampar...

he didn't seem interested...

so i gave up...

then i left the area he was in...

went to my room to hide behind my laptop...

bro came home awhile later...

traded a few songs and stuff with him..

then mum came back round 4pm..

went off to cut my hair and gai gai a bit...

dad din tag along..

after gai gai...

went home to get ready go eat "paper wrapped chicken" with family...

everything went generally well today...

till....

i sit here...

reading some comics as i let my thoughts wonder...

feel bad...

like how i was just throwned aside the last time...

that time did hurt...

but this time...

it not the pain that is worrysome...

its the feeling and the emotions which take a stab/grab at me...

the pain and the presure...

the emotions crush down upon me...

weighing me down so much...

that all the injured parts of my physical and mental body...

the wounds have opened up once more...

so many months have past since the last incident...

yet my wounds which have partially healed...

were re-opened again...

just by this mere small case..

its hurting me badly...

as i try to keep my composure to finish this...

i feel down...

feel so blue...

but a word of thanks to those who comforted me...

thanks...

but with wounds like mine...

comfort can only temporarily close up these grievious wounds...

but thanks anyways...

i'll be alright...

back to my same old self...

just need a few days off...

recover from whatever is ailing me now...

my fingers tremble as i try to block out those sad memories...

in a place where the root of all my sadness began...

this place called "home"...

for me...

being able to live a day with no problems like today...

eases me a bit...

that is all for tonight...

more upcoming....

2moro or the day after~~~

Good night everyone....

Reload

i've decided...

i'll continue with the story...

though it may no longer be filled with the lovey-dovey scenes...

or maybe it will...

but i will stand firm and continue in my writings...

Friday, March 6, 2009

Boil soup....down the drains with all of it...

Boil soup....

down the drains with all of it...

dun even need to ask...

everything out...

and to hell with all of it...

suan lar...

wad to do...

this will be last part of the story...

no happy ending...

(M.L. do continue reading...more new stories next time...end of the story d)

main female character of the story uncomfortable with these stories...

so i got to end the story early...

maybe next time will have a better story to write on...

good training for me...

on day can write a book~~

sell it and get rich like J.K. Rowling....

well that's all for now folks...

check back round the weekend for a new story...

might have might not...

depends if i get any inspiration or not~~~

hehe...'

sry again to my readers for ending the story so suddenly...

Thursday, March 5, 2009

summary of my day - 5/3/09

feel much worse today....

didn't feel like attending linguistics today....

slept early last night...

but still cannot wake up this morning....

din even hear all 5 of my alarms...

lucky stippe called me ask if i want go class or not~~~

went in the end...

knees felt like on fire....

pain like mad...

after that...

slept right thru the 1st hour of luke's class....

cannot tahan listening to literature history adi.....

craziest and most boring topic ever....

whr got ppl, week after week after week do history of literature geh!!!!

stupid wan....

2day she ran off early~~~

really early....

suan bah~~~

den afternoon, wanted come home to sleep....

but after pack some stuff...

took a bath...

then time to leave adi~~~

went for the next literature class....

in which i could not sleep....

luke was sitting right behind...

classmates did their presentations for the literature assignment 1......

another mad thing...

damn unfair....

those nid present today no nid wear formal...

those present tomorow need...

=.='''

in other words...

attire no marks geh..

dun care adi lar~~~

i gt ok marks adi...

no complaints...

2moro class at 11am...

dun wan cycle d..

knees soo pain...

take med oso no use...

that day stupid lar...

was distracted by my thoughts while cycling...

din notice shoelace got jammed in the chain...

in the end PK lor...

left knee slammed into the ground...

and there i was saying that my knee just healed...

stupid...

tired lar...

now wanna sleep jor~~

good night~~~

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Feeling of uneasiness

Since this morning I've been having this feeling of uneasiness....

It feels like theres something i should do....

but i cant think of anything at all....

It also feels like theres something missing...

something missing in my life...

that is apparent...

i know whats lacking...

but its affecting me a lot today...

for only THE LORD knows what reasons...

Slightly grumpy...

maybe lack of sleep....

or maybe cuz i'm distracted...

managed to rest on her back for ....

a minute plus plus...

cant forget the feel...

felt great...

all my probs temporarily melted away...

the moment i took my head away...

the feelings of uneasiness returned...

and i've lost count of how many times ive asked her out for a meal...

not just the 2 of us lar...

the dai lou's and others also join....

but duno lar....

always say busy or have other plans ler...

suan lar....

must be persistant...

maybe sometime in the near future...

we will have a meal together...

feeling really unwell now....

inside tummy like got tornado spinning....

headache....

feel like throwing up too....

duno whether its the food i ate or what....

but have been feeling this uneasiness since this morning~~~~

or maybe...

its just that i din have enough sleep...

everynight...earliest oso 1.30am sleep...

recently more towards 2am only sleep....

i wanna chat with her lar~~~

but she dun on9 oso susah~~~

nvr noe when she will online...

no fixed timing~~ XD

dun care lar~~~

patience and persistancy....

well thats all for now....

maybe later update again...

see ada mood or not~~~

What Makes A Malaysian A Malaysian? taken frm an email sent to me by nelson

What Makes A Malaysian A Malaysian?

1. A typical young Malaysian can name all the players from a top English Premier League club,
but ask him to name one football player from Malaysia, he cannot!

2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive.
In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.

3. When highway toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain.
When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.

4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain.
When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE, run from one end of 1Utama to the other, that one NO COMPLAINT.

5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either:
(a) traffic jam (b) no transport or (c) cannot find parking.

6. You have a parent who forces you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni,
then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce..

7. You know someone who can
specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to an American / British / Australian.

8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud.
Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.

9. Every year on the 30th April,
you are one of the people below queuing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.

10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1,
you blame the Chinese.

11. When a government service is too slow,
you blame the Malays.

12. When a building is not good and collapsed,
you blame the Indians..

13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say 'Wah! Very clever hor?'
When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say 'Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!'

14. When an angmoh stranger kisses you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy.
When a Malaysian guy kisses you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him in face.

Monday, March 2, 2009

A summary of the past 2-3hrs...

I wanna play the gentleman role sometimes...

like today for instance....

if she had follwed....

i would have used my jacket to block out the rain for the both of us....

but well....

it din happen....

left before she even came out of the class...

big brother was hungry....

so cepat cepat go KFC to eat....

haiz....

if only i could have played the gentleman role....

great setting too....

but on the bright side~~~

made her 2 paper swans...

which she gave one to her friend....

well at least she accepted one....

haha....

dont bother lar~~~ :D

happy can liao....

no need think about other stuff....

well thats all for "now"...

i wanna take a bath...

then need fix my formal shoe...

it's sole is falling off....

bought a bar of almond chocolate...

and hair shampoo....

wallet empty again liao....

*sigh*

The Dream I had Last Night

I waited....and waited and waited....

I waited like a puppy awaiting its mistress's return....

an hour past.....

i told myself....

let me wait another 30minutes....

after 30minutes...

i told myself maybe another half hour....

it was 2am when i realised....

i should just go to sleep....

so i did...

in my sleep...

i dreamed...

I dreamed that we were watching the stars together...

My head on her lap....

her hand in my hair...

slowly caressing me...

it felt great...

singing as we sat there...

watching the stars...

ah....

peace....

how nice if it were to be true...

how nice if it were reality....

with the heavens and the stars as witness...

a new whole is created....

that was a nice dream....

hope it would have gone on longer....

but sadly....

my alarm rang....

signalling that it was time to go back to reality...

the thought...

that dream...

it seemed so real to me...

sad....

but never mind...

maybe one day....

i shall be able to watch the stars with her...

*Silent Sigh*

What a nice dream I had~~~

To bad it had to end so soon~~~








****** The word "whole" in line 25 refers to something else....have to read one of my older post to understand it...i think the post was from early last year. ******