Exams over, holidays started

Exams over jor, holidays here~~~

More updates soon~~

Do come often~~ ^^

Feel like I'm being used...

"I HATE YOU! IF you cant even get the guy you love to like you, you're useless!! By using me so that you can make him JEALOUS! What a joke, you made use of my sincere love towards you so you could make him jealous! W*** T** F***!! Do you think you can make him jealous while your with me? How stupid can you get? He doesnt even give a S*** about you! Whats more, he's my best friend!! You get close with me just to get him! You're a F****** B****!! I dont ever want to see your face again! GET LOST!!"

This was what my best friend shouted to his GF at our gathering last year. Some how it came back to me just now. We(the other friends) were rather shocked. We thought they were still ok, you know those lovey-dovey unseperatable couples. Even their parent didn't object to them being together. There we were thinking that he'd be the 1st of our friends to get married.... To think that his GF actually loved his best friend and used him to get to her target. Acting all happy at lovey-dovey... all fake..all just to get to someone else.... He explained to us what was going on, and at the end of his explanation, 90% at the gathering agreed to his actions. What she did is a disgrace to all women around the world... That despicable B****!

I was used once too. So I do know how he feels... Even now.. I feel like I'm just being used again... I see the sign and stuff, but in the begining I thought I was giving my new best friend a hand, he was ok with that. Till another one stepped in, he rejected her, yet i think he did it without thinking... Now he wants to make up for it, she on the other hand, now playing hard to get... and I stuck in between, used by one side to manipulate an effect for the other side...

Stupid isnt it...I still am wondering how I got myself into this situation... What started out as a joke to give the shy him a chance... Now has become high tention/pressure situation.... Its like a triangle whos sides do not meet... 2 girls and 1 guy... oh yeah another guy in the center of it all being used like a leaverage....

I'd want to avoid a sceen like that of my gathering last year... So I've begun to distance myself from this foray... Instead attemping to tag onto another more safer route...or so the route appears to be... But one of the triangle is sortta trying to make it less obvious... If things continue like this, there will be a 2nd triangle appearing... Oh S***... this is not good at all....haiz...

Back to the present(This very moment) my heartbeat has been irregular for the past 2 days.. makes cycling and playing a oain in the chest.. Low stamina and breath... I find that after trying to exert more energy while cycling, my heartbeat and breathing goes way off... very irregular... more like I'm grasping for air... The pain in the chest isnt any good either... Makes my breath eeven shorter... Duno whats wrong.... its been like this since yesterday afternoon... Body sot sot edi...

ARGH!! Things are going way off plan...or you could say that the road has just become a roller coaster.. with unguided and unknown paths ahead... for all I know their may be an upside down loop or a sudden turn in event... Best stay quite and see how things go.....



P.S: sorry about the crude language but I'm just telling it as how it is...I did sensor out the words so it isnt that bad... but once again.. Sorry about the crude language..

A creed to live by

A Creed to Live By

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others.
It is because we are different -
that each of us is special.

Don't set our goals by what other people deem important.
only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart.
cling to them as you would your life;
for without them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers
by living in the past or for the future;
By living your life one day at a time,
you will live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over -
until the moment you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect,
It is this fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks,
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't dismiss your dreams -
to be without dreams is to be without hope,
to be without hope is to be without purpose.

Don't run life so fast -
that you forget not only where you've been,
but also where you are going.

Don't shut love out of your life
by saying it's impossible to find;
the quickest way to receive love is to give love -
the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly -
and the best way to keep love is to give it wings

Credits:
-Author Unknown-
Retrieved from email sent to me by Wen Xin(my classmate)
website she took from: http://www.thylacineslair.com/MindRetreat/Creed.htm

2 nEw StOrIeS

I've writen 1 story and am in the midst of writing a second one....

Title of the 1st short story is : Sunset Flower

Title of the 2nd short story is : The Fountain of Tears

If you want a copy, leave your email address by comment and I'll send it to you.

They are both nice stories...

Though the 2nd one isnt finished yet...

Both stories are too long to be put as a blog post...

The 1st story is equal to four pages in microsoft word...

The 2nd one maybe about that number of pages too, give or take a page or two....

Thats the update for this week~~

Look forward to more after the 11th of MAY (Last day of my exams)

Till then~~

DO come often...

I'll update when ever I can~~

Have a nice day....

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE HAVING EXAMS!!!

SESAT!!!!

Just finished CRT...i think can get a B lar~~

The past few days have been becoming more and more complicated...

he rejected her....she still likes him...she using me to make him jealous or something...

den my b'day coming...

i think my junior likes me...

den she get angry...

den i sesat again...

den hor now no mood go basketball d...

last nite found out that perasan person say bad things behind my back....

den just now lagi bad news...

maybe dinner i sendiri go somewhere with a friend who is not related to any of this....

nid to clear my mind....

haiz~~ sesat'ed week...

and its only thursday...

Difference between Wife & Girlfriend - taken frm Agnes's blog~~

Difference between Wife & Girlfriend

Some people say: Wife is a HARIMAU ...............

Girlfriend is HARI HARI MAU

And some say: Wife is like TV , Girlfriend is like Handphone (HP)

At home watch TV , Go out bring HP .

No money, sell TV .

Got money change HP .

Sometimes enjoy TV but most of the time play with HP .

TV free for life but HP, if you don't pay, the services will be terminated .

TV is big , bulky and most of the time old but HP is cute, slim, curvy and very portable at any time.

Operational cost for TV is often acceptable but for HP is high and often demanding .

Most Important, TV got remote but HP don't have .

Last but not least.......

TV do not have virus but HP have VIRUS ......

Once get it, HABIS LAH.

So better choose TV lah

Study week

No updates for this week...

partner blogger cant get into blog...

stupid streamyx wor...

so nid get back kampar only can type the post...

nth new here...

xecpt dat i lost half a tooth and just got it filled...

hurt like mad wei...

cant use right side to chew today...

T_T

TO THE MOTHERFUCKERS WHO TAINT MY CHAT BOX

CAN U HANTU's PLZ LEAVE MY BLOG!!!

Perfectionist / Perfectionism

"Perfectionism is a Pain in the Butt" said Arlene Harder, MA, MFT.

Equation 1 :

Perfectionism = Pain in the butt

People who strive to be perfect and nth else = Perfectionist = perfectionism

So,

Perfectionist are a pain in the butt.

So what is the meaning of Perfectionist or Perfectionism?

According to http://www.wordreference.com/definition/perfectionist

Perfectionist :

1. a person is displeased by anything that does not meet very high standards

According to http://www.yourdictionary.com/perfectionism

Perfectionism :

1. any doctrine that holds that moral, religious, or social perfection can and should be attained in this life
2. extreme or obsessive striving for perfection, as in one's work

Here are the main 10 traits of a PERFECTIONIST:

All-Or-Nothing Thinking:

Perfectionists, like high achievers, tend to set high goals and work hard toward them. However, a high achiever can be satisfied with doing a great job and achieving excellence (or something close), even if their very high goals aren’t completely met. Perfectionists will accept nothing less than, well, perfection. ‘Almost perfect’ is seen as failure.

Critical Eye:

Perfectionists are far more critical of themselves and of others than are high achievers. While high achievers take pride in their accomplishments and tend to be supportive of others, perfectionists tend to spot tiny mistakes and imperfections in their work and in themselves, as well as in others and their work. They hone in on these imperfections and have trouble seeing anything else, and they’re more judgmental and hard on themselves and on others when ‘failure’ does occur.

“Push” vs “Pull”:

High achievers tend to be pulled toward their goals by a desire to achieve them, and are happy with any steps made in the right direction. Perfectionists, on the other hand, tend to be pushed toward their goals by a fear of not reaching them, and see anything less than a perfectly met goal as a failure.

Unrealistic Standards:

Unfortunately, a perfectionist’s goals aren’t always even reasonable. While high achievers can set their goals high, perhaps enjoying the fun of going a little further once goals are reached, perfectionists often set their initial goals out of reach. Because of this, high achievers tend to be not only happier, but more successful than perfectionists in the pursuit of their goals.

Focus on Results:

High achievers can enjoy the process of chasing a goal as much or more than the actual reaching of the goal itself. Conversely, perfectionists see the goal and nothing else. They’re so concerned about meeting the goal and avoiding the dreaded failure that they can’t enjoy the process of growing and striving.

Depressed by Unmet Goals:

Perfectionists are much less happy and easygoing than high achievers. While high achievers are able to bounce back fairly easily from disappointment, perfectionists tend to beat themselves up much more and wallow in negative feelings when their high expectations go unmet.

Fear of Failure:

Perfectionists are also much more afraid to fail than are high achievers. Because they place so much stock in results and become so disappointed by anything less than perfection, failure becomes a very scary prospect. And, since anything less than perfection is seen as ‘failure’, this can lead to…

Procrastination:

It seems paradoxical that perfectionists would be prone to procrastination, as that trait can be detrimental to productivity, but perfectionism and procrastination do tend to go hand in hand. This is because, fearing failure as they do, perfectionists will sometimes worry so much about doing something imperfectly that they become immobilized and fail to do anything at all! This leads to more feelings of failure, and a vicious cycle is thus perpetuated.

Defensiveness:

Because a less-than-perfect performance is so painful and scary to perfectionists, they tend to take constructive criticism defensively, while high achievers can see criticism as valuable information to help their future performance.

Low Self Esteem:

High achievers tend to have equally high esteem; not so with perfectionists. They tend to be very self-critical and unhappy, and suffer from low self-esteem. They can also be lonely or isolated, as their critical nature and rigidity can push others away as well. This can lead to lower self-esteem.

CLICK HERE FOR A LINK TO TAKE A TEST TO SEE IF YOU ARE A PERFECTIONIST OR NOT

CLICK HERE FOR ANOTHER LINK TO TAKE A TEST TO SEE IF YOU ARE A PERFECTIONIST OR NOT

STILL NOT CONVINCED ON WHETHER YOUR A PERFECTIONIST OR NOT?
CLICK HERE FOR YET ANOTHER TEST!

Be honest with yourself and take the test. Don't lie about the answers. GOD knows whether u cheated or not!

I took the test.

The results? I'm not even close to being one.

Why do I bother creating this post? Because I hate perfectionist, they take away most things in life.

This post has a sole purpose, and that is to let you know if your a perfectionist or not.

Unknowingly you may be, and don't know why others hate you, maybe its cause you don't know that your a perfectionist. After reading some articles online, it seems that being a perfectionist is a psychological disease/sickness. The best way to cure it is by the person's on will to change & stop being a perfectionist.

You'd be surprised to how many people search the net for a cure to perfectionism. It's a good thing in moderate or little quantities, but a toxin when you go overboard with it!!


CREDITS :

To the particular websites, and authors. I claim no credits for the factual stuff, besides just compiling them into this post.